January has been traditionally the slowest month of the year for business and finances are usually tight. This year adds a new car, new accounts,… Read more: Months of Transition

2025 ended gracefully with good company and a positive outlook. The New Year’s Eve celebration was a nice fire on a cold night with people… Read more: New Year

Just as this post explains, the last year has not gone the way I wanted. I’ve posted periodically about the current status of things, but… Read more: Changes Ahead

It’s two days before Christmas and it’s clear I’m not going to get what I want. I’m nostalgic and simple when it comes to traditions,… Read more: Wanted

…and things are not going as planned. I’ll publish a slew of emails from this last year showing how much effort has been put into… Read more: ‘Tis the week before Christmas 2025

It shouldn’t matter, but it does. Thanksgiving is in a few days and I’m extremely depressed. The holidays came fast this year. Halloween flew by… Read more: This Year

The title for this may be misleading but life is a meager mixed bag right now. I’m awake in the middle of the night which… Read more: Low Quality High Life

It may be that my quest for a microblogging engine will be as frustrating as the image server was to get working. Unfortunately, while Bluesky… Read more: Bluesky Above

An open letter to Corvallis coffeeshops: As of writing this, I’ve decided I’m done with coffeeshops in Corvallis. I’ve been insulted for the last time.… Read more: Corvallis Coffee Shame

People aren’t meant to be this lonely.  I don’t have any friends or anyone who cares about me, only people who deprive me.  I can’t… Read more: Severe Isolation

It’s the eve of Mother’s Day as I’m beginning this and I’m more than a little frustrated. Things have not been so bad recently, but… Read more: Mother’s Day Update

Not doing well today. I promise positive posts in the future, but truth is truth. Today would be the day we counted as our anniversary,… Read more: Easter

13 years of sobriety as of today. I don’t have any friends. Nobody cares about me. I don’t have any plans to celebrate, but it… Read more: Holiday Name

Nice quote – “If I didn’t define myself for myself, I would be crunched into other people’s fantasies for me and eaten alive.” Audre Lorde

There is no choice but to start this day with hope. 2024 will go down as a year of failures. After several years of pursuing… Read more: New Year’s Day 2025

Well, I guess Christmas is over.  I didn’t get the new car I hoped for, and I didn’t get included in anyone’s plans.  As usual,… Read more: Christmas

Severely depressed. Like every Christmas, all I have wanted is someone to make plans with… I should be doing last minute shopping, wrapping presents, or… Read more: December 23rd

It’s December 1st, 2024 and things have not gone my way this year. I’ve just come through one of the loneliest Thanksgivings ever and I… Read more: Unfinished Business

One thing is for sure.  I don’t matter to anyone except those who have a vested interest in my failure.  Nobody cares about me.  Nobody… Read more: (no title)

I’m at my wits end this morning.  It was another horny night, extremely isolated.  My home is eavesdropped on without a doubt.  Most recently, my… Read more: Unresolved.

I am more socially isolated than I’ve ever been and things are not getting better.  Driving by places like the pumpkin patch where they have… Read more: Halloween

October 24, 2024 This is a correction to my last post, Unfinished Requiem, and some further explanation for anyone unfamiliar with my story. I suffer… Read more: Prosopagnosia, shapeshifters, and some sigh of relief…

Why did you do this to me? Did you know that one of my big fears was that I wouldn’t see you again until I… Read more: Unfinished Requiem

Posted on craigslist and flagged, as usual.  The holidays are here and I have no friends and no plans, censored missed connections, and a home that’s… Read more: Leticia (not the others)

I have not used WhatsApp for many years and I was surprised to see an old flame appear in my contact list.  Apparently, it was… Read more: WhatsApp Goodbye

So much for fun and planning in the land of sex and money – anything could happen.  Or, not.

Ending the day with some work, at least… this morning was not necessary.

Another few days of mostly harassment, stalking, and manipulation. Another lonely Saturday night, like usual. The standard NLP bullshit, if not some negative crap, just… Read more: Lonely

Someday I will meet a woman who loves me and wants me enough to talk to me and make plans.  Then, I would take her… Read more: Chronic Isolation

Equals 10 Billion : 10,000,000,000

So, it’s the 4th of July and the beginning of a week long heat wave with temps reaching over 100F. My plans are on track… Read more: 4th of July

Just a line and a hook is all one needs to go fishing in Mexico. A small stone may be used as a weight, a… Read more: Fishing in Mexico