This is a complaint about DHS, Highland View Mobile Estates, and the Erdmann family who act as managers here. I am extremely upset. I hope… Read more: Ongoing: continued

From: indigo@skysurfer.mediaTo: police@corvallisoregon.govCc: housing@corvallisoregon.gov, publicworks@corvallisoregon.gov, AttorneyGeneral@doj.oregon.govSubject: Highland View Mobile Estates I am emailing you from my own server this time, as I’m transferring any personal… Read more: Ongoing

It’s the eve of Mother’s Day as I’m beginning this and I’m more than a little frustrated. Things have not been so bad recently, but… Read more: Mother’s Day Update

Not doing well today. I promise positive posts in the future, but truth is truth. Today would be the day we counted as our anniversary,… Read more: Easter

13 years of sobriety as of today. I don’t have any friends. Nobody cares about me. I don’t have any plans to celebrate, but it… Read more: Holiday Name

Time is not linear. One knows this from dealing with death and dying. But in terms of a server and live video, time becomes uprooted,… Read more: Almost live

Nice quote – “If I didn’t define myself for myself, I would be crunched into other people’s fantasies for me and eaten alive.” Audre Lorde

A brief progress report. Times are changing and much has happened here at skysurfer.media – for one, the migration to a new server is complete!… Read more: Bluesky Coming

It just goes to show you don’t always get what you pay for… Ionos appeared to have a good price for the processing power on… Read more: Server News – migration update

So, the time has come to change hosting providers and that will entail moving an entire operating system to a different data center in another… Read more: Server News

There is no choice but to start this day with hope. 2024 will go down as a year of failures. After several years of pursuing… Read more: New Year’s Day 2025

Well, I guess Christmas is over.  I didn’t get the new car I hoped for, and I didn’t get included in anyone’s plans.  As usual,… Read more: Christmas

Severely depressed. Like every Christmas, all I have wanted is someone to make plans with… I should be doing last minute shopping, wrapping presents, or… Read more: December 23rd

It’s December 1st, 2024 and things have not gone my way this year. I’ve just come through one of the loneliest Thanksgivings ever and I… Read more: Unfinished Business

One thing is for sure.  I don’t matter to anyone except those who have a vested interest in my failure.  Nobody cares about me.  Nobody… Read more: (no title)

I’m at my wits end this morning.  It was another horny night, extremely isolated.  My home is eavesdropped on without a doubt.  Most recently, my… Read more: Unresolved.

I am more socially isolated than I’ve ever been and things are not getting better.  Driving by places like the pumpkin patch where they have… Read more: Halloween

October 24, 2024 This is a correction to my last post, Unfinished Requiem, and some further explanation for anyone unfamiliar with my story. I suffer… Read more: Prosopagnosia, shapeshifters, and some sigh of relief…

Why did you do this to me? Did you know that one of my big fears was that I wouldn’t see you again until I… Read more: Unfinished Requiem

Posted on craigslist and flagged, as usual.  The holidays are here and I have no friends and no plans, censored missed connections, and a home that’s… Read more: Leticia (not the others)

I have not used WhatsApp for many years and I was surprised to see an old flame appear in my contact list.  Apparently, it was… Read more: WhatsApp Goodbye

Photoprism failed on upgrade. Librephotos is molasses slow on docker – fail. Going to try Picapport next – Every self-hosted photo management solution has failed… Read more: ToDo notes

So much for fun and planning in the land of sex and money – anything could happen.  Or, not.

Ending the day with some work, at least… this morning was not necessary.

Another few days of mostly harassment, stalking, and manipulation. Another lonely Saturday night, like usual. The standard NLP bullshit, if not some negative crap, just… Read more: Lonely

Someday I will meet a woman who loves me and wants me enough to talk to me and make plans.  Then, I would take her… Read more: Chronic Isolation

Equals 10 Billion : 10,000,000,000

So, it’s the 4th of July and the beginning of a week long heat wave with temps reaching over 100F. My plans are on track… Read more: 4th of July

Finally, 25,981 images uploaded to the cloud – indexing should be completed tomorrow or the next day. Then, one mass search for images to remove… Read more: Phase 2

18,000 photos transferred 8,000 still to go ~ 7 or 8 hours left …and the server is cranking away at postprocessing. So far, it appears… Read more: Slow progress

Just a line and a hook is all one needs to go fishing in Mexico. A small stone may be used as a weight, a… Read more: Fishing in Mexico

So far behind… I haven’t taken very many pictures since my friend passed away, and it’s been an emotional but healing trip through time organizing… Read more: Progress

More cloak and dagger bullshit… today, after dropping off an order on 2nd, I drove past Bodhi on the way to my next delivery. Definitely… Read more: Passings

It was the first one this year for me, and the weather couldn’t be better for a farmers market. Sadly, there are no strawberries yet,… Read more: Farmers Market

I had planned on staying, 45 minutes on the meter, 20 minutes from home.I had planned on playing, finding a spot, seeking out some harmonious… Read more: Mayday

Today marks 12 years of sobriety. I have no friends to celebrate, not even for my Birthday, not even for Christmas. Instead, I have enemies… Read more: April 8th

There are no straight trees. They’re all crooked. Because there are no straight lines, only curves. Curves and internodes are what make a tree, not… Read more: Trees and lines

The tip of an iceberg is nothing to sneeze at. Makes you think of big noses, doesn’t it?

…included this note with my rent check this month.

Incoming Photography 3k photos sorted, 4k to go. 165 video files This will complete the organization of my library from different places and different machines… Read more: Progress 2/21/24

I saw a red Christmas tree ornament today, sitting on a high shelf where it had fallen. I stood near the typewriter that reminded me… Read more: Valentine’s 2024

it’s all hallways for me a labyrinth of switchbacks an arrangement of dead ends and the mirrors only tease sorry I’m so broken time is… Read more: No Running

Before (2014) – After (2024) –

From a fortune cookie – Procrastination is the fear of success.

You don’t know what it’s like to live this way for 15 years. This is an open letter to all levels of law enforcement: I… Read more: 15 Years

I own a manufactured home here in Corvallis and I am seeking an attorney to represent me in my dealings with my landlord.  Over grievances… Read more: Legal Consult

the dogma of self indulgence show me, sure, but tell me, too I didn’t look? You didn’t listen. echoes of time like clockwork big blue… Read more: Disdain

The victor is not victorious if the vanquished does not consider himself so. Ennius

It’s not renumeration if it’s caused by premonition, it’s prerumination.