I’m at my wits end this morning.  It was another horny night, extremely isolated.  My home is eavesdropped on without a doubt.  Most recently, my landlord had me robbed because he felt threatened by something I said.  I am treated like a criminal by the Jehovah’s Witnesses who are nothing more than a deceptive Jesus…

I am more socially isolated than I’ve ever been and things are not getting better.  Driving by places like the pumpkin patch where they have a corn maze makes me feel like I’m on the outside looking in, excluded and unwanted.  It’s not the kind of place I would go alone.  All I have wished…

October 24, 2024 This is a correction to my last post, Unfinished Requiem, and some further explanation for anyone unfamiliar with my story. I suffer from a condition called prosopagnosia, or face blindness.  Basically, the brain separates faces from other patterns for the purpose of recognition.  For most people, it takes only .2 seconds to…

Why did you do this to me? Did you know that one of my big fears was that I wouldn’t see you again until I was diagnosed terminally ill, and that you would be the one to bring in the suicide machine? And now, I can’t get the image out of my mind – you,…

Posted on craigslist and flagged, as usual.  The holidays are here and I have no friends and no plans, censored missed connections, and a home that’s as public as a coffee shop… not to mention, I’m barely welcome in any coffee shop.  My plans for the Summer were mostly sabotaged, though I continue to persevere.  Giving…

I have not used WhatsApp for many years and I was surprised to see an old flame appear in my contact list.  Apparently, it was because I have a new phone number and it wasn’t blocked.  The following are the last two messages I have sent, and I am now deleting that app and her…

Photoprism failed on upgrade. Librephotos is molasses slow on docker – fail. Going to try Picapport next – Every self-hosted photo management solution has failed for one reason or another – too many images, unsupported file types, no videos, no public web option, too basic, etc… Mail currently needs fixing, too. And, Current Status needs…

So much for fun and planning in the land of sex and money – anything could happen.  Or, not.

Ending the day with some work, at least… this morning was not necessary.

Another few days of mostly harassment, stalking, and manipulation. Another lonely Saturday night, like usual. The standard NLP bullshit, if not some negative crap, just ‘nap’. But the same sexual testing, nonetheless. This is the epitome of institutional abuse, but I’m being singled out, too. Weeded out. Nobody cares about me.

Someday I will meet a woman who loves me and wants me enough to talk to me and make plans.  Then, I would take her to the places where I grew up to hike the trails where I played as a kid, or explore the desert on a road trip, or take a holiday out…

Equals 10 Billion : 10,000,000,000