A brief progress report. Times are changing and much has happened here at skysurfer.media – for one, the migration to a new server is complete! I now boast almost 2Gbps unmetered egress and enough processing power to handle multiple streams and multiple viewers. Although I am the sole user, this means there should be no…

It just goes to show you don’t always get what you pay for… Ionos appeared to have a good price for the processing power on their VPS but there were hidden charges for additional features (that would be necessary), the network was more limited, and the OS a representative assured me of was not available.…

So, the time has come to change hosting providers and that will entail moving an entire operating system to a different data center in another city. This is much like moving a house, not a trivial task. I have had the same IP and server location in Fremont, CA since 2017 when I moved from…

There is no choice but to start this day with hope. 2024 will go down as a year of failures. After several years of pursuing justice against a tyrant of a slumlord, and following the death of my friend and partner, I ended up with a lien against the property I live on. My landlord…

Well, I guess Christmas is over.  I didn’t get the new car I hoped for, and I didn’t get included in anyone’s plans.  As usual, I cleaned up the house for the possibility of company, but nobody came over.  I haven’t left the house all day, just watched football and cooked.  I made a good…

Severely depressed. Like every Christmas, all I have wanted is someone to make plans with… I should be doing last minute shopping, wrapping presents, or cooking something. But there’s no one on my list and no one to call. I haven’t had any friends in a very long time. I have reached out and I…

It’s December 1st, 2024 and things have not gone my way this year. I’ve just come through one of the loneliest Thanksgivings ever and I have no plans for Christmas or New Years. I’m beginning this month a thousand Dollars behind my goals, not a month ahead on my bills like usual, and business has…

One thing is for sure.  I don’t matter to anyone except those who have a vested interest in my failure.  Nobody cares about me.  Nobody knows me or misses me.  I have family from both sides who live in this town, old relationships and tons of people I’ve done business with… there are people from…

I’m at my wits end this morning.  It was another horny night, extremely isolated.  My home is eavesdropped on without a doubt.  Most recently, my landlord had me robbed because he felt threatened by something I said.  I am treated like a criminal by the Jehovah’s Witnesses who are nothing more than a deceptive Jesus…

I am more socially isolated than I’ve ever been and things are not getting better.  Driving by places like the pumpkin patch where they have a corn maze makes me feel like I’m on the outside looking in, excluded and unwanted.  It’s not the kind of place I would go alone.  All I have wished…

October 24, 2024 This is a correction to my last post, Unfinished Requiem, and some further explanation for anyone unfamiliar with my story. I suffer from a condition called prosopagnosia, or face blindness.  Basically, the brain separates faces from other patterns for the purpose of recognition.  For most people, it takes only .2 seconds to…

Why did you do this to me? Did you know that one of my big fears was that I wouldn’t see you again until I was diagnosed terminally ill, and that you would be the one to bring in the suicide machine? And now, I can’t get the image out of my mind – you,…

Posted on craigslist and flagged, as usual.  The holidays are here and I have no friends and no plans, censored missed connections, and a home that’s as public as a coffee shop… not to mention, I’m barely welcome in any coffee shop.  My plans for the Summer were mostly sabotaged, though I continue to persevere.  Giving…