Well, I guess Christmas is over.  I didn’t get the new car I hoped for, and I didn’t get included in anyone’s plans.  As usual, I cleaned up the house for the possibility of company, but nobody came over.  I haven’t left the house all day, just watched football and cooked.  I made a good dinner which I ate alone… I usually message anyone I can think of with a ‘Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!’, but this year I just focused on finding someone who might want to go see some holiday lights.  But there is no one.  Nobody called me or sent me a card, no messages.  Nobody asked what my plans were or expressed any interest in me – in fact, it was the opposite, with a couple of guys who seemed quite happy that I was alone and they were not in the last few days.  I’ve never been so lonely in my life.  Nobody knows me and nobody cares.  I don’t have any friends.  It’s my favorite holiday, but nobody wants me for Christmas again this year.