2001Jul21

Secrets of the Blues Revealed

I, IV, & V, rhythm and soul is all it takes to play the blues. What I want to talk about here is the soul. Sadness, loss, grief, and pain are such powerful things that they carry the potential to destroy one’s spirit. How wonderful life would be without them! And how terrible life is when we run and hide, stress and struggle. Why even write about these things? Hmmm…. Can you accept that here in this life suffering is unavoidable? Is it? Who told you that bad things must make your heart heavy? We cannot change our emotions. We try to change who we are, but that is futile. So here is the secret – face your problems. Accept them. They will not go away, but you will discover a secret. They no longer have power over you. There is sadness but there’s no reason to cry when you can sing. The power of your soul can chase the shadows back into the darkness. Laugh at the darkness in celebration but do not mock it, do not feed it. Just dance. Dance and play. Play and you may just find the power of the blues is true happiness.

I have experienced the miracle of love. Now my life will be forever changed. Yesterday I questioned the permanence of such a beautiful, blissful gift. Today it is apparent. Psilocybe Cubensis has affected a permanent, solid, forever change. Psychedelics only appear to have transient affects – that is the illusion. What is stirred by them is real…. And only seemingly out of one’s control. My life is now full of love and magic. This is what I wanted though I was unaware of myself. My fear, my sorrow was so strong that I could not love more than I needed. That is the miracle. Not that I let go of my neediness, but that I learned to love with reckless abandon. I found my capacity to love unconditionally. The world around me reflects this as if I am acknowledged by God I know my needs will be fulfilled so long as I can accept that life is a miracle, that I am a miracle, and that love is ever present. The only failure is a choice to reject God, a choice I can no longer make. The light within now shines through. I will not turn back.
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Leticia,
I have learned so much in these last days. With you I learned to love again though my sorrow had eaten away at my heart, made me hungry for love. You showed me your soul and my love pushed through my sadness and I reached out for you. So when we held each other and cried I felt complete. We were loving each other. Now I know that the letter I had to write is this one. Thank you for restoring my faith in love. I will never forget that.