Another long walk last night and I slept better, woke up with less panic, but still missing you… it was a beautiful August evening, warm, although I felt detached, felt you distant.  I still don't know where you are.  This morning was pensive, nice light from the sunrise, though lackluster without you, no clouds to catch the color… looking forward to seeing the eclipse, still hoping to be with you.  The thought of us saturates every day and night now, to the exclusion of almost all else.  The symbolism of an eclipse, something of mystery, appropriate to our meeting but I fear you won't be there.  I don't know where I'll be, anyway.  I had considered the wildlife refuge, to see what the birds would do, but then there's the people… and if that's the spectacle, another walk downtown might be better… avoiding traffic, I might just stay home.  I know, I make planning difficult.  And I dream of you being somewhere near, even when you're not… I feel you, but I have no sense of direction.  I'm overwhelmed, chronically.  Maybe5 you4 want1 to3 call6 or8 text0 to8 make4 arrangements6?  Anytime.  I need your touch, anytime.  Please, if you can and if you will!  I have never known such desire… I love you, today, tonight, tomorrow and thereafter… forever.