I am overwhelmed with emotion – and the illogic of it all!  I cannot begin to express my thoughts, but I turn to words as usual…  Leticia!  I need you!  I am torn in half without you… my heart seeths in pain when I think of you with someone else, and I think you feel the same way about me.  And yet, you never have told me you want me – something I really need to hear… and so I wait, and pray, and plead… and then I compromise with myself, and find a solution between head and heart that says I deserve to be loved, and touched, and you must want me to move on… and so I try, giving in to some convenient lover, taking whatever affections are offered – and then I fail.  I find myself unavailable, feeling that I've sold myself short, realizing how much I really just want you – and do I not deserve your love?  How can I sabotage the slightest chance of being with you, letting someone else fill the space?  Nobody can replace you.  Convenient or not, I love you.  I am sorry if I've ever made you jealous, and for my own jealousy.  It's true, I want you all to myself.  In 15 years, this has not changed – I let you go if you want anyone else, but I still want you.  Could you please just meet with me to talk?  Or not talk?  Don't worry about what you'll say or do – I don't know, either.  I just need to be with you.  Honestly, I know it will be good.  There was a time when I was not so sure, when we suffered from my low self-esteem and lack of confidence, when fear created doubt.  Now, I know.  I realize the past has been full of apprehensions, even apart from whatever the current situation is, but some things have changed for both of us.  Please, no more liasons and cryptic messages – I just want you.  Haven't I waited long enough?  Forgive me for my selfishness, please.  I still don't feel the need to hide my feelings for you, and I still don't understand all the secrecy in your life.  My position is simple – this is God's Will that we met, so let no man separate us… nothing else makes sense.  If you want me, if you love me, just come be with me.  Until then, I'll keep waiting…