2004Jul30
There is some point not influenced by the masses, some contrast not influenced or affected. In the longest chain of action/reaction the first step is an action always and while projections may be reflective and thoughts abstracted, there is some floating point that is insistently null – the root of it all, and I am that.

…. And my sparrow arrives
Blind flight, focused destination

There or here I write as a way of self-validation, but I cannot write everything – my choices, my imagination, is limited by the isolation of my journals. I have painted my way into a corner of sounds in my head. Being need not be dependant on any one person (not many, either) but nevertheless remains interdependent. This is by definition of who we are that any one of us has an identity.

Breakthrough!

To be self-validating is not valid. I need no excuses written or spoken for my existence. I am intrinsically dependant on myself…. The detachment of which should not be sought [severance is harsh].

Mercy is healing through sharing.

Thank God I am regaining balance! Please God continue to guide and protect me as I prepare to soar. I’ve only just surfaced from my sleep and trust that the people I meet will be valued. Help me with whatever challenges I may face and allow me to hear your voice clearest. I advance in surrender –